Tuesday, August 19, 2008
The Pregnancy Chronicals: The preamble
So wow yeah, some big stuff has happened since the last time I've posted. Well really just one big thing, and that's only if you count creating life as a big event, which is just a cute way to say that I'm going to be a dad :)
That's pretty big right? We were not really trying to get pregnant, so when that plus showed up it was quite a surprise. For those of you who haven't experienced it before, the whole thing is kind of crazy. One moment you're carefree and unencumbered and the next second you are automatically a parent. It seemed like there was no middle ground in my head, once she told me that she was pregnant I was a dad and I didn't know how I was going to pay for that kids college. So there was a little period of freak out there.
But for me, once that initial freak out subsided it was replaced by thinking about the good things. All those sappy moments that I don't want to write. The gift that it is, the good times from my childhood that I want to make sure my child gets to experience too. The bad times from my childhood that I want to make sure that my child doesn't experience. But that's where I've been mentally ever since. I am excited for this, it makes me want to try more at work and around the house. This makes me feel like I want to be a better person for this baby.
Right now we're trying to weather the joys of early pregnancy. Poor Cora has had a rough go of it early on. Her tummy has not been happy and so we've been working on a pretty bland palette of foods. I don't think I've ever made as many grill cheese sandwiches in my life as I have in the past month. But hopefully once she reaches that magical 12 week mark she will start to feel right again.
I would also like to note that this whole experience should be filed away in Cora's ever growing stack of why Alex is a moron folder. When we first start talking about this stuff, you know in those funny hypothetical/trying not to get too serious conversations while dating I always said that "I want it to be a surprise" because I always thought the pressure of trying to conceive would kill me. Well this was a surprise and it's some how more terrifying than I thought trying to conceive would be.
But anyway, I will try to keep everyone updated on our progress through this journey. I hope the next post won't take as long to put together, it took me a while to condense my feelings down to share. I'm pretty sure I could write a nice novella on this if I thought anyone would want to read it.
That's pretty big right? We were not really trying to get pregnant, so when that plus showed up it was quite a surprise. For those of you who haven't experienced it before, the whole thing is kind of crazy. One moment you're carefree and unencumbered and the next second you are automatically a parent. It seemed like there was no middle ground in my head, once she told me that she was pregnant I was a dad and I didn't know how I was going to pay for that kids college. So there was a little period of freak out there.
But for me, once that initial freak out subsided it was replaced by thinking about the good things. All those sappy moments that I don't want to write. The gift that it is, the good times from my childhood that I want to make sure my child gets to experience too. The bad times from my childhood that I want to make sure that my child doesn't experience. But that's where I've been mentally ever since. I am excited for this, it makes me want to try more at work and around the house. This makes me feel like I want to be a better person for this baby.
Right now we're trying to weather the joys of early pregnancy. Poor Cora has had a rough go of it early on. Her tummy has not been happy and so we've been working on a pretty bland palette of foods. I don't think I've ever made as many grill cheese sandwiches in my life as I have in the past month. But hopefully once she reaches that magical 12 week mark she will start to feel right again.
I would also like to note that this whole experience should be filed away in Cora's ever growing stack of why Alex is a moron folder. When we first start talking about this stuff, you know in those funny hypothetical/trying not to get too serious conversations while dating I always said that "I want it to be a surprise" because I always thought the pressure of trying to conceive would kill me. Well this was a surprise and it's some how more terrifying than I thought trying to conceive would be.
But anyway, I will try to keep everyone updated on our progress through this journey. I hope the next post won't take as long to put together, it took me a while to condense my feelings down to share. I'm pretty sure I could write a nice novella on this if I thought anyone would want to read it.
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